I'm shocked over myself that I can think like that. I don't want to be like this. Why can't I enjoy a can of juice without thinking about the calories?

I'm so tired of this!

I don't know were this will end. I think I might have to go ip again. My doctor want to force me into a unit, but I'm not sick enough yet, and I don't want to be like that again. My mum and I always fight now, and she threaten with that she are calling the police and the emergency ward to get me admited against my will. Everything is such a mess right now, but I will do this on my own. I want to get better without a number of new hospitalizations.

Why is it so difficult?

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